West of Somewhere

It Just Ain’t Fair.

I feel like the last priority. The thing is, I’m the last priority on a short list. So I come up a lot. That doesn’t mean I’m not last though. It sucks.

Take Out The Knife

Something about this just feels… wrong. And it has for days now. Uh oh. I really just want to be bad. Yell and scream. And not bottle my emotions to make other people feel better. It’s not working very well. I wish I felt comfortable enough to say what I feel. Maybe it’s a trust issue. I don’t trust people (lies, it’s not that general) to not run away. Shit. That makes sense.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Hollye’s wedding was on September 19, 2009. (Hermione Granger’s birthday!) Anywho, I went to Arizona for the wedding. And I spend all of my time in Scottsdale and Tucson. It was pretty fun. I got to see my cousin buddy. And the wedding was just lovely. <3 Although it was entirely too hot there.

You Can Touch Me If You Want

I try not to publish really really needy/desperate blogs to the public. I often keep those as private posts and then look at them later and roll my eyes at myself. (Although yesterday’s post was kind of on the border.) I think I’m going to break my rule right now. I’m going to be really needy/desperate… And you can’t stop me! But you can roll your eyes at me.

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I Am All You’ve Ever Wanted

I’ve been really happy lately. But sometimes I just get things wrong. And I spend forever thinking, “Shit. Why the fuck did I say that?” Everything would be better if I was less emotional. I know that makes it sound like I cry when people call me bad names. That’s not the kind of emotional I’m talking about. I just feel things so strongly. I’m a person that runs on emotion and overcompensates with logic. And that makes me all fucked up.